Saturday, January 31, 2009
♥ 31/01/09,saturday
Had not been updating the blog.....
sudden urge of scribbling something on it....
stress is unavoidable nowadays....
hate the feelings....
but could not escape...
trap in the deep hole...
don't know how to get out.....
however,i wouldn't call for help......
even if it takes alot of time...
does it matters?..
does it matters if i'm able to get out of it?
it's just too.....difficult.....
many things had happened......
cried so many times since the start of this
year....
i'm....useless?....
came across this sentence.......
"to achieve glory,overcome the pain first"
it truly makes sense....
everything comes with pain...isn't it?...
sitting in the bus,i began to think over again...
the stare that you had given me...
the expression...
the coldness....
this is the ending that you gave me...
it represents a 'full stop' to our friendship...
isn't it...
you made my thoughts change...
i wouldn't dare to get near you anymore...
perphaps.....never again....
why is it that i dare not look
into your eyes anymore?...
it's just too strange...
why is it that you do the same thing?
it makes me feel like you do feel the same as me ...
i knew that it's just an imagination..
i'm thinking too much..
but...
i HAD already given up...haven't i?
Labels: random
9:22 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009
♥ 23/01/09,friday
Had been busy for the whole week.....
depressing...and for the term test.....it was the most tiring
week of my life.....
making me felt so tired.....
lack of sleep......almost everyday...
cried....for so many days....with and without
friends around....
i'm so useless and ashamed of myself..
actually,i thought that i could at least endure till today...the
last paper of this week.....but i can't...:((...nvm...
woke up early and went to school as normal....
was so afraid of the math paper today....
after mrning assembly,went back class to have our lessons....
after lessons,lunch and at 1.45pm,went for
CCA....
which only took us a while....
2.15pm,went backt o the classroom and continue with
exam....
lost 32 marks......
i'm going to be dead for the paper....
physics too....
my weakest part for physics is the electricity...
and teachers gave questions on that chapter....
shit...
hmmm...humans was average.....
after exam,spoke to soemone about something....
things are always so complicated with people's feelings
being hidden deep in their heart....
it's COMPLICATED!!!!
next,went for CCA....
we were isolated.......by the teachers,madams and
juniors...
all alone...nobody bothers about what we were dong...
sonce it's like this,why force us to go to CCA?
i'm confused about it....
we can spend the time for a better use,right?
i doubt that our presence make a big difference....
i dislike going to cca nowadays....
it's so boring....
without our platoon around....
next,walked with hao to chong pang....
we went to buy bubble tea and proceeded on...
chatting all the way there....
walked around and it was like so crowded....
it was so troublesome bringing our bags along....
bought three jeans and i was satisfied with it:)
or rather should i say extremely satisfied with it:D....
it was a relief that it was friday today....
first,i got to go out with my friend which made me
feel less tense....
second,it had been so long since we've
gone out together.....
had our dinner and ate 'hor fun'....
quite nice..
but i was about to vomitafter eating....
think it's because i did not eat because i'm hungry...
but for the sake of eating....
because i'm not hungry at all..
haha....
went home after that......
must it be that people will treasure one another after losing them?
i'm confused...
if yes,why don't you treat them better when they are alive?
i wouldn't be able to take it if someone were to leave me....
someone close....
don't be a coward....admit if you think you like that person...
your cowardness made people suffer.....
don't hide your feelings in your heart...people wouldn't be able
to guess what your thinking are.....
don't make yourself regret in the end....
Labels: term test week
11:58 PM
Friday, January 9, 2009
♥ 09/01/09,friday
chrina's "siansation"..haha...
chirna's stupid face..haa..
hao and geok theng extra behind...:)
buddy and me:D....
my new pencil box..
present from gu lei :)
mrs samuel-emo-ing
bro's hp toy:)What do i mean to you exactly?
someone whom you can neglect if you choose to?
or....
someone whom you can sacrifice if danger approach us?
i hate you....
it's not just because i'm angry that i said this..
i've always hated you......
but please remember....
i would sacrifice myself to exchange your life....
Reached school quite early today....
therefore,i went to the place near the field and
thought through many things...
however,when i thought of what i'm thinking at the parade square
,my mind was in a blank....
things happened as usual in the morning...
(shu fang was late today.....)...
went to classroom
and have our english lesson at 5N1...
mrs ong suddenly want us to write a compo....
GL and i tried to write a compo
with "show and"tell" sentences...
we ended up being the last one and moreover,
we were not able to complete our compos on time....
at first,mrs ong asked us to put it in her
pigeon hole by today..
but..i found one excuse...
i told her that we'll be having our physics test on 1pm..
and...
after which,we will be going to the polytechnic...
at 2.30pm....
she hesitated for a moment..
and told us to pass it up to her on monday....
i'm so grateful upon hearing this:)...
loves....mrs ong...heh.....
after that,went for our recess and went for
E maths...then POA lesson....
mrs samuel said that she wanted to rearrange our
seating arrangements....
immediately,i asked her about my seating partner..
but..
she refused to tell me....
next,i went to talk to her when she walked out and
she askd me to take her laptop or her..
it was only then that she told me...
she told me that i will be seating with gu lei:)..
loves:)...
i asked her why..
and she told me that gu lei seems to be very quiet
in class...so she wants me(who is very noisy)to sit beside her...
:D....
she did not know that gu lei is my good friend:)..
after that,went to library with clique 1 to
library to use computer..
library to use computer..
used till 2.20pm.....
went back class and prepare to go downstairs
to meet the rest...
reached NYP at about 3pm...
toured around.....
and left there at 5.30pm......
went to AMK hub with clique 1 and sf...
walked around......
bought something to eat and thought of
finding someone there.....
so,sms-ed...but that person did not go for work...
sad....why got your off day today?sobxx...
haa..anyway,went home at 6pm....
haa..anyway,went home at 6pm....
bathed and have dinner...
something happened then...
someone started quarrelling...then arguing...
haiz...don't actually feel like talking about it...
it ruins my mood.....
was feeling down when i'm at the shopping centre...
but thanks to sf:)
think is because of your optimistic and happy character..
that lighten my day up again....
thanks..loves:)...
i shall end off here.....
thanks..loves:)...
i shall end off here.....
***my dear friend,please do not hide everything from us...
we can be your best listener....please understand....
we'll be there for you..especially me....
i told you...
"that's what friends are for"..
and i mean it.....:)
i love you,my friend...
thereofore,i do not wish to leave you alone...
alone in the darkness.....because i truly understand the feelings...:)***
Labels: poly visit
8:23 PM
Saturday, January 3, 2009
♥ 3/01/2009,saturday
31/12/2008:
It was the last day of 2008 and didn't spent time on
other things but just stayed at home to rush my homework.
thanks for the new year massages,my friends:D...
01/01/2009:
Went to ''celebrate'' new year with my family....
planned to go to catch a movie"IP man"...it was so nice:)
i rated 5/5...full marks:D........it was so exciting despite it being a martial arts movie........loves......almost the whole cinema was
occupied with people......:)...highly recommended......
02/01/09:
Went to school for the first day after almost 2 and 1/2 months
of holidays.......had been relaxing for
so long and it makes me feel so lazy nowadays.........
reached school at about 7.15am.....sat down and
foolowed by the speech of principal......next,went
back to class to check the assignments..
..luckily that i've already done every single assignments..except
for math..because i didn't managed to take it.
.......was scolded by mrs samuel for
this...she scolded me for being so irresponsible...
..hmmm.....emo-ed a bit......received our
timetable...luckily that we didn't have to copy it down......next,went
to recess on 10am..hao and i didn't eat anything
because we were not hungry.....went back to
class and we were like so crazy.
...playing all the way......after which,it's HUMANS lesson...
..ms chiang and ms chong came in.....we
were rewarded for scoring distinction for HUMANS........
and ms chiang said that she was so happy with
our results as there were 20 people
scoring distinctions........and she also promised us
that she will plan for us a wonderful fieldtrip.....
....also heard from jia hao that she may be leaving after fieldtrip......
.next,we were told that we will be seperated into
two classes....hmmm..i will be going to ms
chong's class.......it's not that sad but ms chiang
have been our humans teacher for 2 years.......hmmmm..nvm
..anyway,after humans,it's physics.....we were also
told that after mrs wong come back to school,
we will be seperated into three bands........enjoyed
abit of physics lessons and were released.....
.talked to xiuhui about her trip to australia....
.and thanks for the gift,xui hui:D....loves:)......thanks gu lei .for the
cookies too:))..........browsed through the photos
with dorothy and helped teachers with the cleaning
up of classroom stuffs.....oh ya..we have a
new co-form teacher:)ms zhang:)
she's a nice teacher:)........next,gf came to my classroom
to find me and we went off to northpoint to catch
the movie-ponyo on the cliff by the sea....
.....on the wayt o havelunch at LJS,saw
sf and she joined us.......the movie is so nice....so cute:D...i love ponyo.
.ponyo love susoke?..not very sure with the name..
haha.......ok lars...love gf too..or else later she
will say that i betray her..heh........went back to
school after that,took math paper from
melvin and after a second
thought,went to take math worksheet from mr teo..
.bacause i was afraid that i will be scolded by teachers on
monday......and mr teo said that he will scold
those who did not take from him...so,i sms-ed
ruitian to tell her that......but she did not reply:(.
.......hmmm..nvm.......returned home after that
because we do not have others places to go..
.....it was a fun day after all:D.........
i shall end off here:)
Labels: re-opening of school
1:04 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..