Saturday, September 27, 2008
♥ 27/09/08,saturday
Happy birthday to my second sis!!!!!!>_<... had a simple celebration today...:)......although simple,we were quite happy...for that short moment,i had almost forgotten the unhappiness that have been bothering me...... It's only almost one more day to 'N' levels exam....hmmm.....i'm so nervous about it....i want to try my best to work hard towards my targets.......hope that i could reach my target.....i do not wish to disappoint them.......i promised that i'll work really hard......really...please believe........i 'm only left with the last breathe to run all the way to the point...if i couldn't make it,i might really break down...i'll not even hestitate to break down in front of everone.....because the burden is already too heavy for me to take it.....i'm afraid that i'll give up.....:(....I had been thinking....thinking that if i entered thru-train beforehand,i would not have such a hard time......its so upsetting that i'm not able to reach your targets....i'm sorry......:(...... For this whole week,i've been so busy...busy adjusting.....haiz.....felt so tired.....had been emo-ing for two or three days in school....i couldn't take it....therefore,broke down in front of buddy.....thanks,buddy..loves.....and i'm sorry to the others that i had been showing a bad attitude towards you all.....:(....i also appreciate the boys in my class.....especially qiang and yang.....always trying to cheer me up.......arigato..:)......also,stayed back night studies on tuesday and friday......had a fun time on friday......:)especially with qiang around..he's so funny and talking nonsense all the time....haha......and jia hao was also ''molested'' on tuesday while walking to northpoint......haha..it's an indian man..think his brain is not on the right track.....hehz.....:D........i shall end off here......shall post...maybe...after 'N' levels?...hehz......all the best for everyone taking 'N' levels......especially zan hao,grace,qi,chrina and mao.....yang and qiang too..:)......buddy told me ''hard work pays off..''...i believe in that too......all the best:)!!!!
***i've already been trying..always trying...but..i couldn't do it.....please forgive me...it's not that i want to feel that way for you....and did not want to cling to you unnecessarily......but..i've been given no time to settle my feelings....but..i'll keep on trying..try to avoid you...and its lucky that we won't be seeing each other in a short time......you must be feeling relief........sorry to cause trouble to you..gomei......:(***
Labels: mentally tired
10:14 PM
Friday, September 19, 2008
♥ 18 sept 2008,friday
It's been a week since i had last updated my posts.....went to school on monday which made me waste one day in school...didn't attend school on tuesday....and attended school the rest of the days.......:(...many things had happened......but i don't really wish to talk about it....had been emo-ing almost the whole day today......i reached school with a bad mood today...didn't intend to be like this the whole day but someone force me into it....don't anyhow assume my reasons for my actions.....i didn't mean to do anything which will have a disadvantage on myself......why would you even care if it doesn't concern your future?....stop scolding me indirectly!!!!if you are not happy with my attitude or actions,you can tell me straight,face to face........i've already had enough...but..you are adding on to my burden by saying things unthinkingly......i'm starting to have negative thoughts.....it totally ruined my day.......i'm so tired.....
During recess today,had been emo-ing at the yellow door......thinking that i'll just hide quietly without anyone noticing...but...who knows that the boys wanted to enter from that door......hmmm...after which,they sat down there and dinesh ask if i'm okay.......i said yes and walked off immediately.....after that,thought of it and thought that it was actually quite rude for me to do that......but i'm afraid that if i stay there any longer,i would just break down anytime......and it would be embarassing to do so in front of so many people.......:(but...i really want to apologise..for just walking away......didn't mean it.......sorry......after that,have a few lessons before lunch.....during lunch,went to northpoint's food court......had korean food.....after that,mood turn better.......thanks to them.....:D.....went back school to attend chemistry lesson at 2.15pm.....we were supposed to do our papers and zan hao suggested to go over to her place to complete it together......she said that the surrounding air was better..more fresher....haha.....after which,have quite a lot of fun before leaving school with geok theng and berlinda.......its really a tired day for me.....
**i've been trying not to face you directly..but..you were always appearing in front of me.....i.....wanted to give up already..i cannot take it any longer.....its been way to many things to handle....the burden is overloading.............i'm also guilty facing her...afraid that my results will disappoint her....i wanted to disappear from this world.....maybe i can give it a try......comeday...perhaps......:(**
During recess today,had been emo-ing at the yellow door......thinking that i'll just hide quietly without anyone noticing...but...who knows that the boys wanted to enter from that door......hmmm...after which,they sat down there and dinesh ask if i'm okay.......i said yes and walked off immediately.....after that,thought of it and thought that it was actually quite rude for me to do that......but i'm afraid that if i stay there any longer,i would just break down anytime......and it would be embarassing to do so in front of so many people.......:(but...i really want to apologise..for just walking away......didn't mean it.......sorry......after that,have a few lessons before lunch.....during lunch,went to northpoint's food court......had korean food.....after that,mood turn better.......thanks to them.....:D.....went back school to attend chemistry lesson at 2.15pm.....we were supposed to do our papers and zan hao suggested to go over to her place to complete it together......she said that the surrounding air was better..more fresher....haha.....after which,have quite a lot of fun before leaving school with geok theng and berlinda.......its really a tired day for me.....
**i've been trying not to face you directly..but..you were always appearing in front of me.....i.....wanted to give up already..i cannot take it any longer.....its been way to many things to handle....the burden is overloading.............i'm also guilty facing her...afraid that my results will disappoint her....i wanted to disappear from this world.....maybe i can give it a try......comeday...perhaps......:(**
Labels: i'm tired
8:56 PM
Friday, September 12, 2008
♥ thursday,11 september 2008
Happy birthday to MUM!!!!!!!! and also happy birthday to AH TI too.....:)
Become older after this day lers.....haa....funny......:)..
Its the last day of prelim exam today..we had our POA papers today....don't have much confidence for this paper.....hmmm....never mind..don't think too much already..its over......and we'll be having one day holiday tomorrow!!!!yeah!!!!i'm going to slack tomorrow....:D.....
Had a quite boring day today although exams were over.....met mum at yishun mrt in the afternoon after the papers......went to toa payoh and had our lunch...after that,went to do something important and went to work with her....haa....so boring...i ended up loitering at bukit pangang shopping centre in my uniform for three to four hours alone......its darm boring.....without anyone to talk to and no one to communicate with...haiz....then,after loitering in the shopping centre,i dread myself back to the location but.....she's still not ready to leave.....finally,we left the place at 7PM!!!!!wow..i can't believe that i spent 4 hours today in the shopping centre.........
Originally,thought of celebrating mum's birthday by having her to cook the birthday noodles but she said that its too late already...then,when i told my sister about her plan,she objected to it and volunteered to cook spagettie(dunno how to spell)...haha...for us.....we were surprised as normally,she would be reluctant to even step into the kitchen...she had made sacrafices for my mum..haaa......had a sumptous dinner tonight....:).....
All the best to the tru-train people(dunno how to spell)...for the fieldtrip.....go there safely and also come back safely too..i'll stay here praying for you all....will miss you all badly..take care.....:)loves.....
Thanks for all the presents,my friends:D....the piggy bank,bee tofu soft toy....pencil box......wind chime......photo frame.....key-shaped key chain and red packets.....loves......thanks.....didn't update on the day of my birthday as i did not have much celebration with my family....cause........hmmm.....anyways....xiexie.....:D....
***I knew that the feelings still exist....but.....it seems to be fading...or..not????...i'm not sure....why did you seems to be like.....avoiding me????.......cause it appears to be like that.....hated when you did that...i did not talk to you unnecessarily..did i???then why did you do this to me???i just want us to go back to what we are like before this........***
Become older after this day lers.....haa....funny......:)..
Its the last day of prelim exam today..we had our POA papers today....don't have much confidence for this paper.....hmmm....never mind..don't think too much already..its over......and we'll be having one day holiday tomorrow!!!!yeah!!!!i'm going to slack tomorrow....:D.....
Had a quite boring day today although exams were over.....met mum at yishun mrt in the afternoon after the papers......went to toa payoh and had our lunch...after that,went to do something important and went to work with her....haa....so boring...i ended up loitering at bukit pangang shopping centre in my uniform for three to four hours alone......its darm boring.....without anyone to talk to and no one to communicate with...haiz....then,after loitering in the shopping centre,i dread myself back to the location but.....she's still not ready to leave.....finally,we left the place at 7PM!!!!!wow..i can't believe that i spent 4 hours today in the shopping centre.........
Originally,thought of celebrating mum's birthday by having her to cook the birthday noodles but she said that its too late already...then,when i told my sister about her plan,she objected to it and volunteered to cook spagettie(dunno how to spell)...haha...for us.....we were surprised as normally,she would be reluctant to even step into the kitchen...she had made sacrafices for my mum..haaa......had a sumptous dinner tonight....:).....
All the best to the tru-train people(dunno how to spell)...for the fieldtrip.....go there safely and also come back safely too..i'll stay here praying for you all....will miss you all badly..take care.....:)loves.....
Thanks for all the presents,my friends:D....the piggy bank,bee tofu soft toy....pencil box......wind chime......photo frame.....key-shaped key chain and red packets.....loves......thanks.....didn't update on the day of my birthday as i did not have much celebration with my family....cause........hmmm.....anyways....xiexie.....:D....
***I knew that the feelings still exist....but.....it seems to be fading...or..not????...i'm not sure....why did you seems to be like.....avoiding me????.......cause it appears to be like that.....hated when you did that...i did not talk to you unnecessarily..did i???then why did you do this to me???i just want us to go back to what we are like before this........***
Labels: wish for ur safety
12:15 AM
Saturday, September 6, 2008
♥ 6 september 2008,saturday
***the choco cake***
***boys over flower***HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QI!!!!!!!!
Hope that all your wishes can come true just as you wished....:)....and get your targetted 'N' levels results........must work harder for everything........and remember that we'll always be by your side:)
Its so fun today:)....loves....at first,planned to go to bukit batok to collect her present....but ended up leaving westmall without anything......cause i forgot to bring the receipt along..then the girl wouldn't allow me to take it...haiz...don't blame her actually cause its not her fault......then,i rushed back to meet the others.....and i'm late.....why must i be late everytime?i don't understand...next,we proceed on by walking around to decide which shop shall we go to for......lunch...???dinner???.....haiz......not sure cause it's already 3 something.....then suddenly remembered that we have not bought the cake....so,the two of us rushed down to the basement and chose a chocolate one,telling others that we have something on....haa...finally,we rushed up after buying.......and also,decided to eat in seoul garden......had a fun time eating.....and also took many pictures and a video but too bad..cannot post.....next,we proceed on to the cinema and decided to watch ''boys over flower''.......it's a nice show:)...(of course....:D..cause chosen by we two>_<..)......haha....when the movie eneded,it's already 9.10pm..which means the movie lasted about 2hours 20 mins...wow...it's so long right?.....haa.....:).....went home after that......i love my friends:)yeah...love today too......all thanks to everyone today.....:)happy moments......i shall end off here....will update if something interesting happens....
Labels: happy birthday to qi
10:34 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..