Friday, September 19, 2008
♥ 18 sept 2008,friday
It's been a week since i had last updated my posts.....went to school on monday which made me waste one day in school...didn't attend school on tuesday....and attended school the rest of the days.......:(...many things had happened......but i don't really wish to talk about it....had been emo-ing almost the whole day today......i reached school with a bad mood today...didn't intend to be like this the whole day but someone force me into it....don't anyhow assume my reasons for my actions.....i didn't mean to do anything which will have a disadvantage on myself......why would you even care if it doesn't concern your future?....stop scolding me indirectly!!!!if you are not happy with my attitude or actions,you can tell me straight,face to face........i've already had enough...but..you are adding on to my burden by saying things unthinkingly......i'm starting to have negative thoughts.....it totally ruined my day.......i'm so tired.....
During recess today,had been emo-ing at the yellow door......thinking that i'll just hide quietly without anyone noticing...but...who knows that the boys wanted to enter from that door......hmmm...after which,they sat down there and dinesh ask if i'm okay.......i said yes and walked off immediately.....after that,thought of it and thought that it was actually quite rude for me to do that......but i'm afraid that if i stay there any longer,i would just break down anytime......and it would be embarassing to do so in front of so many people.......:(but...i really want to apologise..for just walking away......didn't mean it.......sorry......after that,have a few lessons before lunch.....during lunch,went to northpoint's food court......had korean food.....after that,mood turn better.......thanks to them.....:D.....went back school to attend chemistry lesson at 2.15pm.....we were supposed to do our papers and zan hao suggested to go over to her place to complete it together......she said that the surrounding air was better..more fresher....haha.....after which,have quite a lot of fun before leaving school with geok theng and berlinda.......its really a tired day for me.....
**i've been trying not to face you directly..but..you were always appearing in front of me.....i.....wanted to give up already..i cannot take it any longer.....its been way to many things to handle....the burden is overloading.............i'm also guilty facing her...afraid that my results will disappoint her....i wanted to disappear from this world.....maybe i can give it a try......comeday...perhaps......:(**
During recess today,had been emo-ing at the yellow door......thinking that i'll just hide quietly without anyone noticing...but...who knows that the boys wanted to enter from that door......hmmm...after which,they sat down there and dinesh ask if i'm okay.......i said yes and walked off immediately.....after that,thought of it and thought that it was actually quite rude for me to do that......but i'm afraid that if i stay there any longer,i would just break down anytime......and it would be embarassing to do so in front of so many people.......:(but...i really want to apologise..for just walking away......didn't mean it.......sorry......after that,have a few lessons before lunch.....during lunch,went to northpoint's food court......had korean food.....after that,mood turn better.......thanks to them.....:D.....went back school to attend chemistry lesson at 2.15pm.....we were supposed to do our papers and zan hao suggested to go over to her place to complete it together......she said that the surrounding air was better..more fresher....haha.....after which,have quite a lot of fun before leaving school with geok theng and berlinda.......its really a tired day for me.....
**i've been trying not to face you directly..but..you were always appearing in front of me.....i.....wanted to give up already..i cannot take it any longer.....its been way to many things to handle....the burden is overloading.............i'm also guilty facing her...afraid that my results will disappoint her....i wanted to disappear from this world.....maybe i can give it a try......comeday...perhaps......:(**
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8:56 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..