Saturday, March 29, 2008
♥ 29/03/08,saturday
Wow!!!!its another interesting day today.....woke up at 5.30am today as i had something really impt to do...and am suppose to report for sjab flag day after that at sembawang mrt station at 7.30am...it seems like just a wink and its our fourth year in sjab...and also the fourth time participating in sjab flag day...its quite fun but also boring today...at first,i,the group leader,seperate my group into in each team and we went our seperate ways after that..i'm grouped together with zan hao and we went to the passage way near mrt and there's truly a lot of kind ppl..but unfortunately,there's two china girls from naval base came right in front us to snatch away our ''businesses'' and we were really frustrated by their actions...and shortly after that,hong kiat and chrinana arrived and they too grouped as one team and go another way....again,the boys in the same school come stand near them again..then chrina call me and ask us for help..heh..but zan hao got a slight fever and she don't feel like moving so we did not go..we did cheer for them in the phone...but i think is only about 3 mins and they admitted defeat to them...after a while,while we were resting,zan hao said that she's really not feeling well then she went home....she passed the tin to hong kiat when she left...and that hong kiat only know how to slack..haha..**kiddin lar...and he admit that he's useless....but we rested a lot...
The weather today was also like an microwave oven..i'm afraid that if we stay under the sun a few more moments,we will be cooked by the heat....heh...finally,we managed to wait until the time to go back to school and slacker hong kiat suggested that we can take 859 inside the interchange and we did as he suggested...and guess wat....we board the bus and fall alsleep....after about 10 mins of sleep,i was woken up by that stupid bus driver..he turned to the right so suddenly and quickly until i almost fall out of my seat as i was hugging my bag and sleeping...after i was widely awake,i found out that the bus was full of ppl and i was so embarassed..haha...i looked around after that and found out that we were still in sembawang..near sunplaza...and i thought that we were already in yishun..haiz..all beacause of hong kiat..heh...reached northpoint at about 1 pm and we rushed back to school to return the tins....went for lunch in northpoint foodcourt with chrina and we ate spicy fishball noodles..which made my tongue burnt..heh..after that went to vcd shop and on e way back,saw mrs samuel with her friend(i think so..)..then talked to her for a while before leaving.....when i reached mrt station,i don't really feel like going home and went to west mall to walk around....and saw the library there...went in and stayed till 4.30 then leave...haha..today was such a fun and meaningful day for me....^_^...
The weather today was also like an microwave oven..i'm afraid that if we stay under the sun a few more moments,we will be cooked by the heat....heh...finally,we managed to wait until the time to go back to school and slacker hong kiat suggested that we can take 859 inside the interchange and we did as he suggested...and guess wat....we board the bus and fall alsleep....after about 10 mins of sleep,i was woken up by that stupid bus driver..he turned to the right so suddenly and quickly until i almost fall out of my seat as i was hugging my bag and sleeping...after i was widely awake,i found out that the bus was full of ppl and i was so embarassed..haha...i looked around after that and found out that we were still in sembawang..near sunplaza...and i thought that we were already in yishun..haiz..all beacause of hong kiat..heh...reached northpoint at about 1 pm and we rushed back to school to return the tins....went for lunch in northpoint foodcourt with chrina and we ate spicy fishball noodles..which made my tongue burnt..heh..after that went to vcd shop and on e way back,saw mrs samuel with her friend(i think so..)..then talked to her for a while before leaving.....when i reached mrt station,i don't really feel like going home and went to west mall to walk around....and saw the library there...went in and stayed till 4.30 then leave...haha..today was such a fun and meaningful day for me....^_^...
Labels: happy day
8:24 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
♥ 28/03/08,friday
Its been quite a long time since i've updated my blog....maybe since last saturday???..think so ba...cause of some unpleasant reason,i wasn't able to use it....haiyo..hmmm...quite a lot of things happened this few days..first thing is that my cca,sjab,won champion for the competition last saturday....!!!...mt's team got 1st for NA section and best in footdrill,first aid and nursing...carrin's team got 1st in NC and kamal's team got 1st in AC...yiqian's team got ..i think 3rd and eileen's team too....i'm so proud and happy for them although i didn join...but its really because of some reasons that i dun really wanna join e com....today is also the 22nd(i think lar...)speech day...we got to sit in the lecture seats...i love the performance!!!especially the ballet and the piano part....the girls look so beautiful when they were dancing...and the two people who played the piano were incredible....thay join together to play one song....i wish i am also able to play...but cannot afford to learn..i really enjoyed myself today very much...^_^went to 'C' last sunday...at first,we were like so excited....then we lost our way as we were finding the place....haha..finally,after asking ppl,we found it...then we join in halfway....all the ppl there were so friendly and fun...but also very smelly..haha..kiddin lar..i oso ma...and they also scared that we will leave very soon..haha...i mux say that i really enjoy my time there....really and i believe mayoku also did....they all so funny...heh...(pls dun ask me who they are)..and mayoku keep talking bout soong chen..haha..sounds like she's interested in him...(**kiddin)...but i mux say that he look quite ok...maybe can say handsome ba..hmm..i dunno..cause i dunno how to look if a boy is handsome or not...after that..we slept through our way back in the mrt...and from here,can see that we are really tired...heh...its so fun!!i truly look forward to the next time there...^_^....'C' ROX!!!!!ok..i think i shall stop here...bye!!!:)
9:34 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
♥ 17/03/08,monday
I hated her!!!!!!Hated her for everything!!!!!I do not want her around...i really cannot take it anymore...i quarrelled with her again...please....stop forcing me like that.....i really dun want to say that i truly hated u...maybe since young......i hated u for not being able to understand me..not even trying.....why?why?why?..why is it that i have to be ur child....???U are always not there when i needed u...and u did not noticed even once that i'm crying..crying quietly and behind ur back.....why won't u even look back?look at me...will u?at least a glance and i will be smiling...maybe this shall be my greastest wish ever....to have u look at me....i had oso broke down and cried in front of her and tell her not to force me....i told her that she does not understand..and her reply is ''i'm not forcing u....i'm dissapointed with ur results and if u keep on like this,i will lock up the computer!!...''..i hated her for being so unreasonable......and she wanted to punish me by not signing the report slip...she said that if i forge her signature,she will call the school and tell my teacher that i forged it.....I HATE HER FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!dun...dun make me feel this way again...i might do something that will make u regret....i promise........
Labels: i hate u..
9:13 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
♥ sunday,16/03/08
lyrics for ''love me''...
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead of herI found this letter, and this is what it said:If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.I'll meet you when my chores are through;I don't know how long I'll be.But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.And between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.I'll meet you when my chores are through;I don't know how long I'll be.But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.And between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.Between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead of herI found this letter, and this is what it said:If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.I'll meet you when my chores are through;I don't know how long I'll be.But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.And between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.I'll meet you when my chores are through;I don't know how long I'll be.But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.And between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.Between now and then, till I see you again,I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Labels: love me..
5:48 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
♥ 11/03/08,tuesday
Its quite boring to stay at home and i'm even more stress when facing her....i do not dare to show her...show her my failure again.....i blurted out my results to her the day before when we were quarreling....i felt turly bad and guilty after that....she told me the next day that she could not sleep that night cause she's thinking of my results.....and i felt even worst after listening to her.....i wish that i need not face her anymore with those kinda failure and those kinda dissapointment from her.....sometimes i feel like telling her that she don't even understand me,why would she care?....but...i could not do this..and maybe..its because i love her too much and also hated her a little....i ....could no longer take this..this large burden thats causing me difficulty..difficulty to breathe...difficulty to walk...even difficulty to cry.....i know clearly from the beginning of my life that i needed family and friends to live on but i truly do not know how to love them the way i should....i felt so envious of my friends....they often got to tell their mother that their mood is not right and their problems...but....i didn't have a chance to....or..is it that i do not want to.....maybe its better to keep mum about my problems.....staying at home is truly not a right choice for me...i wanted to run away....run away from everything i could....so,i could at least take a deeper breathe and slowly think through..think through what do i exactly want......i'm so tired of laughing....but maybe laughing can make my life more smoother an probably happier.....^_^.....
***i'll continue and try not to give up....just thinking of the two of u is enough to let me go on but i will look back and the only memory of u two will not be erase foreva.....i promise....***
***i'll continue and try not to give up....just thinking of the two of u is enough to let me go on but i will look back and the only memory of u two will not be erase foreva.....i promise....***
Labels: looking back
11:42 AM
Saturday, March 8, 2008
♥ 08/03/08,saturday
Hi......time to post again...its march holiday now but i don't actually want to have e holiday....it seems that i'm starting to have troubles since friday...today,i felt so guilty for the wrong thing that i had made....sorry huan....i had the courage to apologise cause i remembered that u once told me that ''for every wrong that you had made,you cannot use any excuse to cover up for it''...and i agreed with you...i told teacher about it..and am trying my best to make it up for you......i promise..promise not to make this mistake again.....sorry......:(....today went for our KOTO test...and the paper made me felt quite confuse..maybe is that i didn't study it properly.......
Yesterday,its quite a busy day for me cause meiting they all didn't come and kamal and me were assigned to take charge of the plt ones....which made us really busy and luckily we got help from a few plt threes.....thanks to those who helped......after KOTO,went to have lunch with emily and zan hao,after emily left,gene came.....and we chat.....after that went straight home and rest for a while before going there.......its so tiring and i'm struggling really hard....but i will continue and get on with it with all my best......i'm really troubled with all e problems....but after i saw christ's massage,i felt better.....thanks for e comforting..its really great to have u as my friend for so many years...you knows me best..love ya!!!!:)..i'm thinking..thinking that after we die,where will we go?many told me that some will go heaven and maybe some hell....but i'm thinking that after we die,maybe the person will let us choose...choose to live in our childhood memories where we had grown up in and had many beautiful images or...choose to go back to the place we had just left.....haiz...but after writing,i think i'm the only one who really understands this sentence....but never mind....as long as i understand,its fine....i shall stop here...nothing much happened today...*_*
(let me to just quietly stand beside u and solve all your problems for you....i won't let you face your problems yourself...come to me if you need me....i promise and i will do it...and sorry for the trouble that i had brought to you....sorry...)
Yesterday,its quite a busy day for me cause meiting they all didn't come and kamal and me were assigned to take charge of the plt ones....which made us really busy and luckily we got help from a few plt threes.....thanks to those who helped......after KOTO,went to have lunch with emily and zan hao,after emily left,gene came.....and we chat.....after that went straight home and rest for a while before going there.......its so tiring and i'm struggling really hard....but i will continue and get on with it with all my best......i'm really troubled with all e problems....but after i saw christ's massage,i felt better.....thanks for e comforting..its really great to have u as my friend for so many years...you knows me best..love ya!!!!:)..i'm thinking..thinking that after we die,where will we go?many told me that some will go heaven and maybe some hell....but i'm thinking that after we die,maybe the person will let us choose...choose to live in our childhood memories where we had grown up in and had many beautiful images or...choose to go back to the place we had just left.....haiz...but after writing,i think i'm the only one who really understands this sentence....but never mind....as long as i understand,its fine....i shall stop here...nothing much happened today...*_*
(let me to just quietly stand beside u and solve all your problems for you....i won't let you face your problems yourself...come to me if you need me....i promise and i will do it...and sorry for the trouble that i had brought to you....sorry...)
Labels: troubled
10:01 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..