Saturday, February 28, 2009
♥ 29/02/09,saturday
Woke up at 7.30am today...
as i was told on friday that we will have flag barrier training today...
reach school at 9am but did not see the other flag barriers...
my first thought was...
was the training cancelled?...second was ..
are they late for training?
therefore,i waited..and i waited for about 15mins..
after which,an NPCC boy walked to me and asked me why i'm in school..
i replied him honestly and he told me that the training was cancelled..
and they cancelled it yesterday...
i was so angry..they did not even inform me about it..
wasted my time and bus fare...
irresponsible...
they should have at least inform jasena and ask her to inform me about it...
right?
went straight home after that...
on the way back,complained to girlfriend and she called...
she said that she acually intended to ask me to join her and sweetheart for
lunch...
therefore,i told her that i could actually meet her out after my bath...
left home at 10.30am after bathing...
reached northpoint at 11am...
i felt sorry to girlfriend and sweetheart....they waited for me for half an hour?
think so...
sorry...
went foodcourt to have lunch...
saw dinesh,matthew,daryl and zenson...
didn't speak much and they left shortly after..
after lunch,went to HS.....sweetheart and girlfriend said that they will join me
in few hours time...
therefore,walked there and it was so noisy with kids running around like wet market...
however,i tried my best to concentrate and succeeded in it..
i managed to complete my geography assignment...one load off my shoulder:)
whee:D...
the two joined me at about 11.40pm...
played and chatted...left there at about 4pm...
took bus 969 to causeway and sopped around....
sweetheart went to look for workbook but couldn't find it...
went to have dinner together at foodcourt...
sense of nausea struck me after eating the food..
felt like vomitting but felt better after drinking my chinese tea...
afterwhich,went to UNCLETIBITS to walk around....girlfriend brought her
childhood tibits..haha...
i,too,looked for mine but i couldn't find the burger....
it's been on the extinct list..heh...
proceeded on to comics connection...brought hearts...
there's light if you press on it...it's beautiful..
but my heartbeat...there's something wrong with it....doesn't seems to beat..
but it's strange...because when sweetheart pressed,it started beating...heh..
is this call 'fate'?....heh...
went our seperate ways afterwhich......
Many things had happened...
i'm disappointed in myself..
my emotions are out of control nowadays...
girlfriend2 said that she will help me....i felt so thankful...
thnaks for everything...your concern....the sense of secure that you gave me...
thanks!!!loves!!!...
however,the disapproving expressions from teachers let me feel that
i've done something really wrong...
things that made them felt disappointed...
i'm depress,,,,,
by everything....
and i've also done wrong..by venting my anger on my friends...
i'm sorry,everyone.....especially sweetheart and gabriel....
didn't mean it..really...please..don't take it to heart....
days past...
feelings fade...
it's the normal 'procedure'..
isn't it?
then..
am i abnormal?.......
as i was told on friday that we will have flag barrier training today...
reach school at 9am but did not see the other flag barriers...
my first thought was...
was the training cancelled?...second was ..
are they late for training?
therefore,i waited..and i waited for about 15mins..
after which,an NPCC boy walked to me and asked me why i'm in school..
i replied him honestly and he told me that the training was cancelled..
and they cancelled it yesterday...
i was so angry..they did not even inform me about it..
wasted my time and bus fare...
irresponsible...
they should have at least inform jasena and ask her to inform me about it...
right?
went straight home after that...
on the way back,complained to girlfriend and she called...
she said that she acually intended to ask me to join her and sweetheart for
lunch...
therefore,i told her that i could actually meet her out after my bath...
left home at 10.30am after bathing...
reached northpoint at 11am...
i felt sorry to girlfriend and sweetheart....they waited for me for half an hour?
think so...
sorry...
went foodcourt to have lunch...
saw dinesh,matthew,daryl and zenson...
didn't speak much and they left shortly after..
after lunch,went to HS.....sweetheart and girlfriend said that they will join me
in few hours time...
therefore,walked there and it was so noisy with kids running around like wet market...
however,i tried my best to concentrate and succeeded in it..
i managed to complete my geography assignment...one load off my shoulder:)
whee:D...
the two joined me at about 11.40pm...
played and chatted...left there at about 4pm...
took bus 969 to causeway and sopped around....
sweetheart went to look for workbook but couldn't find it...
went to have dinner together at foodcourt...
sense of nausea struck me after eating the food..
felt like vomitting but felt better after drinking my chinese tea...
afterwhich,went to UNCLETIBITS to walk around....girlfriend brought her
childhood tibits..haha...
i,too,looked for mine but i couldn't find the burger....
it's been on the extinct list..heh...
proceeded on to comics connection...brought hearts...
there's light if you press on it...it's beautiful..
but my heartbeat...there's something wrong with it....doesn't seems to beat..
but it's strange...because when sweetheart pressed,it started beating...heh..
is this call 'fate'?....heh...
went our seperate ways afterwhich......
Many things had happened...
i'm disappointed in myself..
my emotions are out of control nowadays...
girlfriend2 said that she will help me....i felt so thankful...
thnaks for everything...your concern....the sense of secure that you gave me...
thanks!!!loves!!!...
however,the disapproving expressions from teachers let me feel that
i've done something really wrong...
things that made them felt disappointed...
i'm depress,,,,,
by everything....
and i've also done wrong..by venting my anger on my friends...
i'm sorry,everyone.....especially sweetheart and gabriel....
didn't mean it..really...please..don't take it to heart....
days past...
feelings fade...
it's the normal 'procedure'..
isn't it?
then..
am i abnormal?.......
Labels: out of control
9:16 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..