Saturday, February 28, 2009
♥ 29/02/09,saturday
Woke up at 7.30am today...
as i was told on friday that we will have flag barrier training today...
reach school at 9am but did not see the other flag barriers...
my first thought was...
was the training cancelled?...second was ..
are they late for training?
therefore,i waited..and i waited for about 15mins..
after which,an NPCC boy walked to me and asked me why i'm in school..
i replied him honestly and he told me that the training was cancelled..
and they cancelled it yesterday...
i was so angry..they did not even inform me about it..
wasted my time and bus fare...
irresponsible...
they should have at least inform jasena and ask her to inform me about it...
right?
went straight home after that...
on the way back,complained to girlfriend and she called...
she said that she acually intended to ask me to join her and sweetheart for
lunch...
therefore,i told her that i could actually meet her out after my bath...
left home at 10.30am after bathing...
reached northpoint at 11am...
i felt sorry to girlfriend and sweetheart....they waited for me for half an hour?
think so...
sorry...
went foodcourt to have lunch...
saw dinesh,matthew,daryl and zenson...
didn't speak much and they left shortly after..
after lunch,went to HS.....sweetheart and girlfriend said that they will join me
in few hours time...
therefore,walked there and it was so noisy with kids running around like wet market...
however,i tried my best to concentrate and succeeded in it..
i managed to complete my geography assignment...one load off my shoulder:)
whee:D...
the two joined me at about 11.40pm...
played and chatted...left there at about 4pm...
took bus 969 to causeway and sopped around....
sweetheart went to look for workbook but couldn't find it...
went to have dinner together at foodcourt...
sense of nausea struck me after eating the food..
felt like vomitting but felt better after drinking my chinese tea...
afterwhich,went to UNCLETIBITS to walk around....girlfriend brought her
childhood tibits..haha...
i,too,looked for mine but i couldn't find the burger....
it's been on the extinct list..heh...
proceeded on to comics connection...brought hearts...
there's light if you press on it...it's beautiful..
but my heartbeat...there's something wrong with it....doesn't seems to beat..
but it's strange...because when sweetheart pressed,it started beating...heh..
is this call 'fate'?....heh...
went our seperate ways afterwhich......
Many things had happened...
i'm disappointed in myself..
my emotions are out of control nowadays...
girlfriend2 said that she will help me....i felt so thankful...
thnaks for everything...your concern....the sense of secure that you gave me...
thanks!!!loves!!!...
however,the disapproving expressions from teachers let me feel that
i've done something really wrong...
things that made them felt disappointed...
i'm depress,,,,,
by everything....
and i've also done wrong..by venting my anger on my friends...
i'm sorry,everyone.....especially sweetheart and gabriel....
didn't mean it..really...please..don't take it to heart....
days past...
feelings fade...
it's the normal 'procedure'..
isn't it?
then..
am i abnormal?.......
as i was told on friday that we will have flag barrier training today...
reach school at 9am but did not see the other flag barriers...
my first thought was...
was the training cancelled?...second was ..
are they late for training?
therefore,i waited..and i waited for about 15mins..
after which,an NPCC boy walked to me and asked me why i'm in school..
i replied him honestly and he told me that the training was cancelled..
and they cancelled it yesterday...
i was so angry..they did not even inform me about it..
wasted my time and bus fare...
irresponsible...
they should have at least inform jasena and ask her to inform me about it...
right?
went straight home after that...
on the way back,complained to girlfriend and she called...
she said that she acually intended to ask me to join her and sweetheart for
lunch...
therefore,i told her that i could actually meet her out after my bath...
left home at 10.30am after bathing...
reached northpoint at 11am...
i felt sorry to girlfriend and sweetheart....they waited for me for half an hour?
think so...
sorry...
went foodcourt to have lunch...
saw dinesh,matthew,daryl and zenson...
didn't speak much and they left shortly after..
after lunch,went to HS.....sweetheart and girlfriend said that they will join me
in few hours time...
therefore,walked there and it was so noisy with kids running around like wet market...
however,i tried my best to concentrate and succeeded in it..
i managed to complete my geography assignment...one load off my shoulder:)
whee:D...
the two joined me at about 11.40pm...
played and chatted...left there at about 4pm...
took bus 969 to causeway and sopped around....
sweetheart went to look for workbook but couldn't find it...
went to have dinner together at foodcourt...
sense of nausea struck me after eating the food..
felt like vomitting but felt better after drinking my chinese tea...
afterwhich,went to UNCLETIBITS to walk around....girlfriend brought her
childhood tibits..haha...
i,too,looked for mine but i couldn't find the burger....
it's been on the extinct list..heh...
proceeded on to comics connection...brought hearts...
there's light if you press on it...it's beautiful..
but my heartbeat...there's something wrong with it....doesn't seems to beat..
but it's strange...because when sweetheart pressed,it started beating...heh..
is this call 'fate'?....heh...
went our seperate ways afterwhich......
Many things had happened...
i'm disappointed in myself..
my emotions are out of control nowadays...
girlfriend2 said that she will help me....i felt so thankful...
thnaks for everything...your concern....the sense of secure that you gave me...
thanks!!!loves!!!...
however,the disapproving expressions from teachers let me feel that
i've done something really wrong...
things that made them felt disappointed...
i'm depress,,,,,
by everything....
and i've also done wrong..by venting my anger on my friends...
i'm sorry,everyone.....especially sweetheart and gabriel....
didn't mean it..really...please..don't take it to heart....
days past...
feelings fade...
it's the normal 'procedure'..
isn't it?
then..
am i abnormal?.......
Labels: out of control
9:16 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
♥ 21/02/09,saturday
I'M SORRY TIAN TIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>_<
I promised to express my apologise in my blog:)remember?....
Went to school at 9am for training today:D...
reached school but raden have not reach...
therefore,we waited..finally,he reached and we went to
meet the others...
started training and it WAs FUN!!!!!!
made friend with the girl guides...the girl's
name is justina....
also,the NCC,BB AND NPCC....they are quite nice lar:)...
and we were told that we must wear the NUMBER.1 uniform!!!!!
i am super EXCITED upon hearing that...
the same goes for jasena and raden.....
it will be our last parade....and we will be able
to wear the number 1 uniform...
i can live without regrets in life:)haas...
i'm too exaggerated....i think...
hehs...
yeah..
flag barrier again...(don't know if i spelled it correctly anot..)
heard that speech day and school opening ceremony
are on the same day....
geezzss..
was informed by ms soh that we can go on stage to
receive certificate and volchers
on speech day:)
means that i'll have to rush..
after the parade,i will have to rush to change back to school uniform again..
so excited lars:D....loves:)
many things had also happened this week:)..
today also went to walk around at northpoint and causeway with
tian tian,GF and SH:)loves:)ahhhhh!!!heh...
too enthusiastic today..the three of them called me crazy
haha.....walk around till about three something
and "dismissed"..heh...
bathed and here i am:)..
shall end off here now:)....
don't treat me too good:((...i'm really afraid to
fall in love again..
please..
be cruel to me and end my pain at this moment..
you gave me hope but i knew that it's impossible..
i've been avoiding..
but...
wherever i go,i will see you...
i......
don't....
like......
the feelings...
i feel pain seeing you..
please....:(
Labels: number 1 uniform
4:38 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
♥ 15/02/09,sunday
Tears roll unnoticeably down my cheeks nowadays...
Crying like a maniac for no reason...
I'm tired...
Probably tired of living...
Sometimes,i would be wondering if it's better to be the adopted one...
It would be better for me...
I guess......
It would probably be a better way to free me from
the surface of the stress i'm under now...
It's very fortunate to be able to breathe freely..........
I realised.............
Crying like a maniac for no reason...
I'm tired...
Probably tired of living...
Sometimes,i would be wondering if it's better to be the adopted one...
It would be better for me...
I guess......
It would probably be a better way to free me from
the surface of the stress i'm under now...
It's very fortunate to be able to breathe freely..........
I realised.............
Labels: TOL
11:10 AM
♥ 15/02/09,sunday
was so happy when talking or with GF and SH....
they really made my day....:D..
loves:)
saw them on 169 bus-stop on friday after cca....
was so happy...
we chatted and laughed...
after which,went home as i have an "appointment"..
haa...
stayed home on Valentine's day yesterday....
haa..
i wasn't lonely at all..lol..
the company of family already satisfied me....
....
hmmm..
nothing much to elaborate on....
SH:thanks for enlightening my day..always when i feel blue..
i really really appreciated your presence..
and..i wanted to let you know about it:)
thanks for being with me:D...
GF:i also wanted to tell you the same thing too:)
thanks..thanks..thanks.....:)..
loves..:)
i've just realised something that i was not supposed to know..
i should not have read that..
it was indeed very shocking very me...
but...the treatment would still
be the same as before....
i promised....and..
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!...
Labels: i love you
8:48 AM
to be a CKK instructor asap..