Thursday, October 16, 2008
♥ 16/10/08,thursaday
Had been attending intensive revision for four days and today is the last day...:)....although i had attended whole of the revision,i had been slacking all the way..haiz....indeed no mood to study after 'N' levels....hope that i could ''regain'' my energy for studying after these few days.......after revision today,went home and met mayoku to gym at 3pm....was late again for 10 mins...and she told me that she reached there at 2.40pm...haha...waited for me for about 35mins...felt so guilty....:(...haa....anyway,after working out,its already 5pm...we went to causeway by 969......and went to comics connection and shop for comics........after which,went to library......and dinner.......shop a while and went home.....had a tiring day today..:)
Labels: end of intensive
9:17 PM
Monday, October 13, 2008
♥ 13/10/08,monday
12/10/08:
Went to SAKURA with mum,fifth aunt and second sis.......we met with aunt outside pasir ris SAKURA for lunch...had a sumptous meal and planned to go to east coast park..but too bad that second sis cannot join us cause she had tuition at night....she won't get there on time.....therefore,we had to send her off first....to pasir ris mrt station...next,the two of them said that they wanted to go to the washroom so,we went inside the shopping centre..and guess what...???...i saw jun wai they all coming out....is like i walked past the 4/1 boys..and they didn't noticed me....haiz...haha..but luckily they didn't..or else...it would be quite paiseh bah......then followed mum and aunt to east coast and it was sooooo boring....we just sat on the bench for....2 hours??...3hours???maybe.......and watch.....the people...the sea.......haiz...and the two of them gossiping throughout the whole way...and me???...i sat there alone.....maybe a few moments of day-dreaming.......hahaz........then after that,when we intended to leave the place at about 8pm,we came across a performance......by a boy.....think he's about my age.....and he's truly amazing......and when i'm watching the performances,Mr Mark past by me...walking in front of me with his girlfriend..without noticing me...think i'm invisible the whole day..cause no one can see me.......(i mean those that i know)...:D.........went home after that.....
13/10/08:
Went for chinese 'o' levels intensive revision today....quite a lot of people didn't come today.......and i was late..haha...today's intensive was from 11am to 2 pm......talk alot today......and took some worksheets...have lunch with zan hao and went home after that..... tomorrow's intensive will be from 8am to 12pm.........and about 20 days to 'o' levels chinese.....ahh..so nervous..and mdm cao said that my language ''de-proved''......guess its because that its been a long time since i've touch chinese.....haiz..got to buck up!!!!...ok:)i shall end off here.........sign off.....
Labels: sakura-chinese intensive
6:28 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
♥ 12/10/08,sunday
Yesterday was quite a fun day for me...:)went out with them to celebrate hui lee's birthday......as they are having their exams soon.........met out at admiralty mrt at 11am and good thing is i'm not late......hahaz....and i'm the first one to reach there.......:D.....after which,we travelled to causeway to buy her present which is a handbag and it was out of our total badget........but we bought it anyway.......next,met up with hui lee and we went for lunch.......we orginally planned to go to safra for the party world...but christ said that she was too lazy to travel....so,we went to the one in civics centre.......ialso saw one thing like bracelet which really made me feel crazy about that thing........although it was simple,i thought that i really love it.....therefore,i bought it.......:)..........after party world,it was still early.....about 4 soemthing...so,ping suggested that we'll go for pool.......at woodlands centre.......when we started playing,only hui lee know how to play...so she taught us about the rules....and all......it was so fun playing pool.......i love pool now...hahaz...no wonder beng tiat went for pool almost everyday.....heh......after pool,it was already 6.35pm....so we went straight home..........:)
it was a fun day after all:D......
it was a fun day after all:D......
Labels: pool
9:13 AM
Friday, October 10, 2008
♥ 10/10/08,friday
Hi!!!!its been some time since i've updated my blog.......and 'N' levels is over...tuesday is our last day:)......although we had already completed our exams,i do not feel relax at all........its like.....i'm still under alot of stress..and i'm not clear what s the thing that's bothering me........haiz........anyway,we went for our BBQ on the 8 of oct which is wednesday......had a really fun day.......with lao tie,qi,xiu hui,gabriel,melvin and cecelia...:).......qi,xiu hui and me were also in-charge of marinating the chickens......haa..its so fun and its the first time for us too:D..........met at causeway in the late afternoon and headed to east coast.......when we reached there,lao tie and me started to play around......he told me that our star ranger HQ is inside the sea..and our robot will fly o us when we need it.....haha...he's so crazy......then at night,around 9 something,the boys and cecelia went to buy alcohol....hahaz....then left the bbq things for us...we were like trying our best to look out for the fire......making sure that the fire is still there..:)..after that,tried out their alcohol and it tasted so bitter........especially melvin's one...and they still lied to me that the chicken patty was cooked already..but it tasted so gross cause its still uncooked.......then,the boys went near the sea to chat with their alcohol so,i followed them..and listened to their nonsense.......hahazz...and melvin was almost drunk...we can see that his whole face turned red.....heh......when we wanted to go home,we still had to walk a long way to the bus stop,take one bus to changi airport and changed to 858 bus back home..by then,it was already 11 something...in the bus,we chatted and laugh together and got scolded by an aunty...she asked us to keep quiet and we do so...but when we were quiet and just using our hands to play around,she tapped cecelia and scolded us again....she said ''not like girls at all....so noisy......''.....then cecelia like bu shuang liao.....but we managed toreached home safely...hahazz......its a fun day for us...:)loves......
***thank you,my friends.....i'm so touched.....thanks chrina and shu fang for the tag...loves.......***
Labels: happy events
12:19 PM
Saturday, October 4, 2008
♥ 4 october 2008,saturday
I cannot take it anymore.....i cannot face her anymore..i think its right that cannot run away forever..but..at least..at least i can run away now...its just so painful....the burden is too heavy already..i don't wish to face her anymore.....i just realised...just realised that its impossible to let her understand about my thinking......i hated it....just quarreled again...and she's out now cause she don't want to see me....i want to get out of here....i'll escape..as far as possible...if only i'm allowed to......:(.......if only..if only i'm not home today...it would be perfect if i'm not at home....and it would be even perfect if i can disappear from this world..its not just throwing tantrum......if there's a chance for me to be in a coma...i'll just sleep as long as i want to...i wouldn't want to wake up again.....it would be good if fa xing and ru yi are here with me.....i'll be able to confide in them.......i'll even exchange with them...allow them to come to this house.....to be able to be alive......i lifted my courage a few days ago and showed her my results......and her response was as expected...''u've only got a 6th position..its not good enough.....why are you not the 1st?.....and your poa...why are you not the 1st in class?......you only got a 79.....''...i can only keep quiet at that moment.......i couldn't say anything anymore....although its already expected,i still feel guilty like normal......therefore,its better to escape than to face it.....i tried facing it..but what i got back are injuries.....i do not wish to get hurt again.........i shall end off here today..........
(i'm sorry that i have to vent my anger and unhappiness like this.....but..there's no other way for me to do it.....i want to get away....)
(i'm sorry that i have to vent my anger and unhappiness like this.....but..there's no other way for me to do it.....i want to get away....)
Labels: guilty
5:48 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..