Saturday, February 16, 2008
♥ worried
Haiz...i'm so worried about my term test results...i didn't expect my chinese to be like this...i'm extremely afraid to tell my mum about it.i'm so afraid that she will say ''i'm so dissapointed in u!''.....she will do this and its for sure.and my poa....i managed to balance the account but..but..my net profit is wrong....grrr...i almost cannot take it....i'm also afraid that one day,i might break down.why won't she try to understand me?why is it that i'm scolded everytime for bad results?why won't she say to me ''don't be sad...just work harder for the next time''?why?she never ever encourage me,since young......i'm always so afraid to tell her my failure.......cause i don't wish to dissapoint her.i force myself to success and to let her see...to just get her to praise me.....but sometimes,even if i did my best,she would just compare my results with the others and say that ''your marks are still not good enough''....i remembered once,in secondary 2,i get the highest in chinese in my own class..and when i came back and happily wanted to show it to my sis,she told me that ''u're just lucky for once but not for the next time''.......i don't actually wants to foce myself that much but its not for me to decide whether i want it or not.there's always people around me telling me not to make them dissapointed and i really tried my best throughout the years and still trying hard now.but i didn't get the reply that i think i would get and instead,onc i succeed,i cannot fail again.i shall not say anymore.(dear friends,dun reply if u see this entry,i just want to vent my anger on it,please forgive me....)
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1:32 PM
to be a CKK instructor asap..